For transmasculine nonbinary journalist, photographer, and filmmaker Alyza Enriquez, transitioning wasnt a linear journey from point A to point B. In their 2019 Vice essay about their experience microdosing testosterone, they described resisting the typical understanding of gender transition which tacitly prioritizes passing as either male or female and coming into their own identity as a nonbinary person instead.Im non-binary, and Im not interested in presenting to the world as a man based on whatever antiquated physical criteria that might invite that assumption, Enriquez wrote. Microdosing testosterone, they explained, rejects the notion that there should be an end goal to a persons transition, and allows them the freedom to embody their gender on their own terms, slowly inching my way to a soft, forgiving space where I can be gentle, hard, bold, and understated. Related Toxic masculinity has warped our culture. Trans men are showing the path forward. I wrote that article as a way to ensure that people knew [microdosing testosterone] was an option for them, Enriquez told Them recently. I dont think its in any way a new phenomenon. It just has a name now, where I imagine that our trancestors have been doing this for a very long time.Enriquezs 2019 piece went viral, and the following year they published a beginners guide to microdosing testosterone. In that follow-up guide, Enriquez noted the hundreds of messages theyd received from nonbinary people assigned female at birth interested in this underexplored version of transitioning. As they told Them, those messages got them thinking about making a documentary about the transmasculine nonbinary experience. Never Miss a Beat Subscribe to our newsletter to stay ahead of the latest LGBTQ+ political news and insights. Subscribe to our Newsletter today That film, Neither/Both, which Enriquez is co-directing with producer Regina Dolza, aims to both spotlights Enriquezs own transition journey and pass the mic to other nonbinary people, giving them a platform to tell their stories in much the same way that high profile transgender people like Laverne Cox and Elliot Page have in recent years.But as Enriquez told them, the doc will also explore the unique relationship many transmasculine nonbinary people have to masculinity.Alyza Enriquez | YouTube creenshot Part of what also feels really important to me about the doc is at this current moment in time, where we are with masculinity more generally feels really terrifying and bad the Manosphere, Andrew Tate, that kind of thing, Enriquez explained. Sometimes it can feel like, I dont want to be in proximity to that. How do we create a new blueprint of masculinity that feels like its tenderness, its the good parts? It takes into account all of the experiences I had as a woman before and being around a lot of women?Sometimes, when youre transmasculine, its easy to inherit the toxic bits of masculinity, which is not being able to talk about your feelings or feeling like you cant talk about your feelings, they said, adding that this was something they had experienced themself. We have all these really specific issues and experiences. Lets talk about them. Lets have an open dialogue and lets create a space for ourselves to be able to gather and not feel ashamed or scared of being in relationship to masculinity, they added.In Neither/Both, Enriquez explained, that will be explored through conversations with transmasculine people about their own relationships to cis men in their life, and possibly even through interviews with cisgender men.I think ultimately its about having conversations and showing what people engage with when they are interacting in the world and what theyre up against, they said.Subscribe to theLGBTQ Nation newsletterand be the first to know about the latest headlines shaping LGBTQ+ communities worldwide.